How does it affect you?
I will include links here for some of the sites I've wandered across for sexual and domestic abuse- victims and survivors. I've also included my poem, THE HOUSE. This is a sensitive subject and I hope I handle everyone's links with sincerity. Sue William Silverman was born in Washington DC where her father was a high ranking government official He was also a child molester. "The moment I began to write 'Terror-Father' I felt as if I'd just learned to speak, that I heard my real voice for the first time." Catherine Brown is the author's pen name when writing about her children. A young woman's search for truth leads to a courageous battle to save her children. THE HOUSE It's walls drip with aging mildew I can smell rank, filthy, slimy green scum I can taste such a foul lifeless taste Trying to come alive but no more I hear the moaning the crying I feel the tears falling on my bed at night The house the one I live in each day I hate the house it has nothing for me So many bad memories Why must we live here? This isn't the house not the house I want for us It has no life It's dead The smell of death is here a constant reminder Four walls closing in on me Swallowing me up into oblivion Where are you? Gone You're always gone and I am here Alone Alone with the house that reeks of insanity It's stale in my mouth taste lingering Go away make it go away I'm being swallowed up by the house My mind obeys the sick depressing blackness Scream? I can't It won't let me Let me free The house has sucked me dry Taken all my emotions drained me of life They cling to the slime on the walls and laugh at me My emotions betray me No love excitement happiness Just a dull throbbing pain deep inside Get me out of here Destroy it Take me far away far away from The house © Brenda M Weber 2004 A Message Board for survivors of sexual abuse. In her book, Jeannine Vegh details a creative journey; surviving childhood abuse, domestic violence and other personal life lessons. Dear Lord Deliver Me From this Hell is a first hand account by Kim Eyer, a domestic abuse survivor. Domestic violence and struggles in the US court system. Stolen Innocence by Erin Merryn is available at IUniverse as well as Amazon and Barnes & Noble. This link will take you to IUniverse where you can purchase her book. She is an amazing young lady with a mission in life. She just graduated from High School. Her book is a journal based on a diary she's kept since childhood. Her goal is to get the stigma off child abuse and get the word out there that this is happening. Erin donates 50% from the sales of her book to the Children's Advocacy Center of North and Northwest Cook County in Hoffman Estates/Illinois. You can help her cause and help to save a child from experiencing what Erin did. The Mighty Phoenix- To provide helpful information to survivors of childhood sexual assault. Survivor Journey- Dedicated to all the brave survivors of sexual abuse and incest. Beautiful poetry pages. A website to help others in any way, who have been or are being abuse in any form- Physically, Mentally or Verbally Wings of Fire is dedicated to all victims of sexual abuse- current or childhood sexual abuse. Add your name to the survivors wall Claire R Reeves' book covers the disturbing issues of incest and child sexual abuse, the greatest hidden epidemic in America. One woman's story and survival of sexual abuse as a child. This is the most amazing story I've ever read. Mothers Against Sexual Abuse provides a resource referral network of professionals who aid in the recovery of children and adults who are survivors of sexual abuse. Rachel Miller was murdered by her ex-husband in April 2000. She was six weeks pregnant. 13 months later her son Tyler, 12 years old commited suicide, afraid he would become an abuser too. This is a heart-wrenching tragic story that everyone in America should read. Domestic violence is an epidemic in our nation, for one there is no cure. Visit this site and sign their guestbook. This story will never leave you. 
Erin's book has a new cover and a new publisher! Her story was noticed by Health Communications, Inc., a Life Issues Publisher and now, besides going to school, she also tours for book signings and speaking engagements.
Blackened Blonde by Terae
Mona's Closet - A healing journey
MASA
I have just read and signed this online petition. You may want to consider it yourself. "Petition to Strengthen Domestic Violence Laws."
A message of hope, help and healing for the victims and perpetrators of Domestic Violence.
A group of women from around the world who have come together for one common purpose, domestic violence and child abuse. My poem, Freedom, now appears on this site.
Gift From Within is an International Organization for survivors of Trauma and Victimization.
Male Survivor Organization. Researchers at John Jay College of Criminal Justice are conducting a study to better understand the effects of child sexual abuse in adult men and women.
Male Survivor of Childhood Sexual Abuse. This is a UK blog site in SW London. Caution- This site may be triggering and uses explicit language. Dan is a survivor.
Survive Domestic Abuse. We are survivors of domestic abuse. We know the pain, the hurt, the humiliation and the worthlessness. There is no excuse for Domestic Violence!
"Bricks From The Ashes"- Written by Michael and Cheryl Berardi and sung by Ronnie Kimball. This is one of the most beautiful songs I've ever heard.
Byron's story is living proof that there is always someone worse off then you and I. This is a horrific story of abuse and corruption and his voice needs to be heard by the world. Maybe there is someone big enough to help him.
Use this link to read and consider signing the JUSTICE FOR THE PRIORS Petition.
HER BLACKENED EYES
I wish you could see yourself through my eyes
See how I detest your addicted lies
You seem to think you're some brawny prize
Your three piece suits and Tazmanian devil ties
Sitting in your board meeting you think you're so wise
From the floor with battered body I rise
Coming home you grab your fast-food fries
Stop at your connection and make your buys
You smile at the police officer behind your disguise
The situation he can apprise
I know your lows and he sees your highs
Another night of my pleading cries
The neighbor says Call before she dies
With all your excuses words and vies
The siren screams as the vehicle flies
You're in handcuffs as my bloodied face dries
There's a roomful of cops waiting to take you down a size
I wish you could see yourself through my eyes
You're the prize that I despise
The cop says there's no hope for you guys
I stand alone and say I hope he dies
© Brenda M Weber 2004
True emotional story about Trudy and her siblings growing up with an abusive father.
TEARS IN THE RAIN is a site for all survivors of sexual assault to come and heal.
Michael F. Craig founded HEART OF THE FAMILY after the loss of his daughter Nichole who died during childbirth after complications from abuse. He also lost a son Brian to domestic abuse.
Goessoftly is a retired therapist who worked for many years with severely emotionally disturbed, physically, sexually and psychologically abuse children, teenagers and adults. 
After 5 years of mental and physical torment, Barbie Durbin picks up the pieces of her life and starts over with the support of her family and her faith in her ability to become a whole person again. It Never Stops is not just another story, it's another story about the epidemic cycle of abuse.
YOU HURT MY HURT
DragonPoet- A survivor's site for helping someone heal.
"All forms of sexual abuse are damaging and the trauma doesn't cease when the abuse stops."
SEARCHING FOR ANGELA SHELTON 
In Searching for Angela Shelton, filmmaker Angela Shelton sets out on a journey to meet every other Angela Shelton in America. Her original intent was to survey the thoughts and perceptions of modern American women.
In the process she discovered that, like herself, 24 out of 40 Angela Sheltons had been raped, beaten, or molested . The making of Searching for Angela Shelton not only forced the filmmaker to confront her past but she also confronts her own pedophile father on Father's Day.
Click on banner link to purchase this DVD that will storm the nation! Thank you and spread the word!
CBS's 48-Hours featured a special episode on the making of the documentary.
In her own words, "Searching for Angela Shelton has paralleled my journey as a survivor from the moment I drove into the unknown to meet every Angela Shelton, to the moment I made a commitment to heal myself. It has been very hard work addressing the issue of rape, battery and molestation everyday for the past three years but the amount of survivors who are deciding to change their lives because of it was worth all the effort. I have received thousands of emails and letters from people all over the world--male and female--who were sexually abused, raped or beaten and I receive more every day. Though this movie carries my name, it is not just about me or the Angela Sheltons, it is about an epidemic of child abuse, rape and battery that we must all address, no matter what our names are. If we heal ourselves, we can save our children." -Angela Shelton - the filmmaker
The movie Searching for Angela Shelton is now available for sale on both DVD and VHS. If you'd like more information on Angela Shelton and her work follow the link by clicking on the camera.
Multiplicity Abuse & Healing Network since 1998. Over 400 pages of resources, articles, links to relevant books for both survivors and the professionals who treat survivors. Information on Dissociative Identity Disorder.
By Katlyn Stewart, this book tells the life of a child that lives through the ordeal of child sexual-incestual abuse with the courage and perseverance, the ramifications of abuse in adulthood and the journey to heal. Just because the abuse might end - the Nightmares can still Echo.
This site is an avenue for abuse survivors to anonymously post letters to their abuser.
This may be a way to take that first step to be free. . . . . . .
Poetry written by abuse survivors. Poetry can be triggering. No trigger warnings on poetry.
This is my Brenweblog- A new place I have to ramble my thoughts on relationships, domestic abuse or just about anything I might find interesting that might help you or just brighten your day a bit.
The following poem is being used with permission from the poet, Michael Teal/The Ancient One.
Michael DeRoche/Michael Teal was given the spirit name The Ancient One With Heart of Buffalo Journeys With Spirit of White Wolf, by a Lakota Medicine Woman. Michael wrote this poem and dedicated it to survivors of abuse. (Thank you Michael)
WHEN WILL YOU TOUCH ME AGAIN
I LOVE YOU
I HATE YOU
THE PATTERN IS SET
THE BLANKETS ARE BLOODY
AND THE SHEETS ARE ALL WET
I CRY IN MY SLEEP
AND PRAY FOR THE END
AND WHEN WILL YOU TOUCH ME AGAIN
I'M BEATEN
I'M BLOODY
I'VE BECOME WHO I AM
THE DEVIL IS IN ME
AND GOD'S HIS RIGHT HAND
HOW CAN I RUN
IF I CANT EVEN STAND
AND WHEN WILL YOU TOUCH ME AGAIN
PLEASE HOLD ME
PLEASE LOVE ME
I WISH I WAS DEAD
MY BODY IS FRIGHTENED
OF WHAT ITS BEEN FED
PLEASE HURT ME ONCE MORE
THEN CUT OFF MY HEAD
AND WHEN WILL YOU TOUCH ME AGAIN
OH WHEN WILL YOU TOUCH ME AGAIN
© Michael Teal/The Ancient One WEBSITE It is sold to raise money for RAINN, the Rape, Abuse and Incest National Network which operates a national hotline (1-800-656-HOPE) for victims of sexual abuse, educates the public about sexual violence, and leads national efforts to improve services to victims and ensure that rapists are brought to justice.
After The RAINN is a collection of survivor's writings, containing the short stories, poetry, essays, prose and true stories of over twenty male and female survivors of incest, rape and sexual abuse.
APHRODITE WOUNDED site is help for women sexually assaulted by partners. (Yes, it is rape) My book is listed on the Good Reading page of this site. Thanks!
UNLOCKING THE SILENCE is a survivors site.
Elizabeth is a survivor of sexual trauma and domestic violence.
Verena's site with information and thought-provoking resources for rape and sexual abuse survivors.
JOURNEY TO THE MAGICAL PLACES OF THE HEART
After surviving nearly 11 years of emotional, mental, physical and sexual abuse Hope finds the strength and courage to leave her abuser.
Jessicalynn's site- "If every survivor of violence would speak out about what happened to them then maybe one day the violence would end."
Pooja is a survivor of adolescent sexual abuse. "It is the anger and rage toward my abuser that inspired me to develop this webpage. If I can provide comfort & solace to one survivor that he or she is not alone, I will have taken a step in the right direction." 
"The completion of this book was the beginning of 'my' happy ending. I believe that those who bare the scars of pain are never truly free...they owe a debt to those who still suffer. And so I share with you this compelling story of four year old little Mary and her life 'before'...'during'...and 'after' these crimes against nature were committed against her, and I pray that in turn you will share it with others. A precious fragile childhood is a terrible thing to lose, and no child should be robbed of it."
"Deep down inside was still that little girl who wanted to be happy. I not only punished myself, but I had punished the little girl inside of me. She had feelings too. I was being selfish, only thinking about my feelings, always forgetting that I still had the little girl inside.
She went through a lot of pain growing up and didn't deserve to still be in pain. It was time we started taking care of each other. The little girl inside had faith in me, and she never gave up on me. She was a fighter and knew I was the only one who could release the shame, the guilt and the pain." CLIMBING OUT A Little Girl's Journey Through Sexual Abuse by Carol McLoud Sexually abused/raped by 2 teenage boys when she was 6, a battered wife at 16, this courageous woman finally tells her secrets when she's in her 40's. Now she tells it in her book published by Publish America. Listen to her interview with Dr. Kathleen Brooks/Breaking the Conspiracy of Silence. HAULLIE FREE'S site is audio documentaries for survivors of sexual and domestic violence. "A mission to break the conspiracy of silence for all to embrace their voice and the power of lifting the rage on this epidemic once and for all." The shocking true story of how a woman escaped the daily terror of a violent partner to build a new life. Description of the Book My goals for writing Dancing with the Devil were to give those living with violence the chance to realise that there is hope, and the opportunity to move onto a better life, even though at the time there seems little or no hope at all. I also wanted to reach those who don't understand it at all and hopefully wipe out some of the myths that still ***New Book Coming in September 2006*** This book address what it means to be sexually assaulted by a partner, it's short-term and long-term effects and how to heal or be a support to someone who has experienced it. Author research and "voices" of 30 women who have survived "partner rape." Contact the Authors- Patricia Easteal & Louise McOrmand-Plummer at: r_pike1@iprimus.com.au Point Last Seen is an intensely personal work. This is a true story of one woman's odyssey/journey through three complex issues of childhood sexual abuse, domestic violence and mental illness.
DANCING WITH THE DEVIL recreates the terrifying life Amy Norman experienced for four years with her violent, drug addicted boyfriend. Amy went off the rails and left school after her beloved ballet teacher told her she was too fat. She fell for Dean and his heady world of drugs and excitement. At 17 she left her middle class family and moved into a flat with him. Within three years she had had two children to him and numerous abortions. She had dealt drugs, became hooked on marijuana and been bashed countless times. She left him a few times, returning each time to her parents, brothers and sisters who welcomed her back with open arms. But each time she returned to Dean, out of fear that he would kill her, her children or her parents - as he had threatened. Finally after four years of unspeakable torment, she packed up the children and spent three years travelling around Australia - changing her identity time after time to avoid him. This book will hook you - everyone who has read it hasn't been able to stop until they know Amy survives and escapes. Her final triumph makes you forget the nastiness and violence and leaves you cheering her on as she launches a new stage of her life.
(Personal note from Amy)
exist in the minds of so many." Amy Norman, Author.
Available in the UK on March 1st under this title, by Jon Blake Publishing
Real Rape, Real Pain: Help for Women Sexually Assaulted by Male Partners
This rich and compelling true story offers a look inside the mind of a survivor of abuse. For over 20 years, this woman lived through child abuse, domestic violence and losing custody of her son. She now holds her Master's degree in Counseling Psychology with an emphasis on Somatic Psychology and offers help to others survivors.
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